Monday, June 09, 2008

a sudden urge of coming back here to blog.
cos i tink everyone would have forgotten this blog.

oh well.
i feel unjust.
but. wad can i do?
would u even listen to me?
all u know is from the other side of the story.
wad abt the flipside of it?

i am not wanting u to side me or wad.
but dun talk as if u push all the blame to me.
so to u, i am really such a sucky person?

ya. maybe dar is right.
with all that u have now, u would not even care who i am.
and u will just treasure wad u have now.
and me. i am just a passerby in ur life now.
great reward after all.

haha. i shall laugh abt it.
laugh how dumb i am, and how clever u are.
really. claps for u =)

Purely Writen by weiqi at 8:31 PM

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

drama drama drama.
its time to end.
i shall be the first lead to die.
and leave this drama for good.
lingering and lingering. what do i get?
hurt, pain, tears. and the list goes on.

ya. so wad if everyone thinks that its unfair to me?
truth and reality just wouldnt change for me.
ya. so much so of believing this is 'reality'.
i can only have all myself to blame.

one belief that is left.
the one that i love is gone. for good.

i have only myself to depend on.
the end of story.
a cruel and painful one.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:08 PM

childhood fren might be right.
when will this drama end?
and its time to exit from this emotional roller coaster ride and move on to smth else.
why why why.
why do i want to take this roller coaster ride at all?

seeing the paragraph.
heart pounded, eyes watered, blood gushing.
why. why do i want to be so affected?

ya.
u have moved on. so quickly that i cant even imagine.
wadver u say changes everyday.
so wad now?
to believe that u guys wun be an item?
and tml, all these will be a facade.
so wait. wads all these shit for?

~~dun u tink u are just being a little cruel to me?~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:04 AM

Monday, March 17, 2008

realized the hatred in me now.
din realize it at all.
its just ~~fucking~~ spoil my day.
how wish i can punch u into ur face.
and say yes, i did this on purpose.

whose pain is greater now?
was it urs or mine?

wad a way to start my week.
~~fuck off~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 8:28 AM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

i regret.
to trust u.
a halt just in time, before hurt is done.
another human playing ard the 4 letter word.
u dun deserve love at all.
~~f* you~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:59 PM

i am totally lost sometimes.
and i do not know wad to do.

realised a few good pointers which i should believe in.
everyone is a clear suface.
pain and hurt are the super-duper-difficult-cleared-dirt.
when hurt is done, these dirt will adhere themselves to the clear suface.
the dirt will only be cleared after much effort put in and also when time goes by.
when someone sets in again, this someone will be the paint to cover up the old suface of u.
it covers the dirt if they are not cleared.
when this someone leaves again, the layer of paint will be gone as well.
wads left is more dirt and the old suface of u.
the amt of dirt is too much to be removed by then.
pain wil be unbearable as well.

love is simple. and its just a kind of an emotion.
its just human race that makes it complicated.
as they desire, they configure in a way that they want love to be.
in the end, humans are unable to excute the simple value of those 4 letters.
treasure love, make it simple.

yes.
i got to admit that i still have feelings.
i still love and i still miss.
but give me time, one day, i will stop loving and missing.
i will.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:43 PM

oh no.
i tink my mind is screwed.
sheesh.
this is not good at all.
better wake up before anything regretful happens.
*slaps*

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:35 AM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

stay over was nice (:
though our activities were not as packed as it was supposed to be.
in conclusion, we...
shopped for food, played bridge and bball, cooked (haha. nice), watched tv, sang, soaked ourselves in jacuzzi(for 2 hours!!!), bathed, had supper(goodnessly sinful, but nice dim sum), had alittle bit of beer, slp.
and next morning, cooked (again, buang to the max), clear up, attempted to watch step up but we all slp, home sweet home.

its tiring but fun.
i had muscle ache all over and my nose is running vigorously.
thats not good.
feel that the sickly virus are camping in my body now.
oh noo...

it feels good to chat till our lungs out.
rmb-ing the past, how do we gt to know each other, the changes.
its a long long long journey, it will and definetly will go on (:
cant really exclude anybody out of this life journey, everyone who has been with me for these few years, ur names are mentioned. haha.
i guess all of u would have felt some itchness in the ear.

i guess sometimes things will just change when something procedes for a year.
this is how life is like.

and. i just hate to wake up every morning.
it has been haunting me for weeks.
when will this stop?

so many songs that can depict how i am feeling.
and i really think tanya's songs are too oh my god-ing emo.
but they just reflect the truth and the reality.
i guess only those who have onced loved, understand the songs even more.

managed to bang into someone's blog.
oh well. could see myself in them.
how much they love, how much they gave each other, comes to nth in the end.
15 mths as well.
gosh. unlucky number.
what she says is true.
odd couples get tgt, be it the ugly or pretty.
envy them as they have someone to embrace, to share, to love.
but we...
have no one.
oh well. i just treat it as part and parcel of life.
~~f* it.~~

this entry is getting a little too long.
shall stop.
back to work.
geeeeee....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 7:33 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008

freezing...
when will this coldness stop?
not just the weather.

haha.
oh well..
so much so of saying all the nicey words.
but they dun mean anything at all?
is this wad u really want?
i jus dun like it when someone doesnt reply my msg (:
but again, there are still ppl who can still cheer u up.
my presence in ur life doesnt matter anymore.
haha. how insignificant i am.

i guess i have really good 6th sense.
all these are wad i have peredicted all along.
thanks for making it come true.
should i even thank you for that?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:49 AM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

that epi has been stuck in my head for the whole day.
after much thoughts, i feel that i am jodi.
oh gosh. how dumb.

yest had weird dreams.
dreamt of gg to some expedition. and had to climbed up a hill where sands are lose.
then see myself in a toilet. lots of cubicles. i think i was planning to bath. but i din.
and a few numbers appeared. haha.
then i wanted to get a black tie. i found one but i gave to someone who needs it urgently.
time to understand what it means.

Sand -To see sand in your dream, signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. Consider also the familiar phrase, "the sands of time" in which it may be suggesting that you are wasting your time or letting time pass you by.
Toilet - To see a toilet in your dream, symbolizes a release of emotions or getting rid of something in your life that is useless.
Tie - To see or wear a tie in your dream, represents your obligations and relational bonds. The dream may also be a pun on feeling tied down to a situation or relationship.

somehow it means i am troubled by some r.s problems and it is a waste of time. and i should release my emotions or to get rid smth that is useless.
cool.
so wad should i do?
dreams can be so unhelpful sometimes.