Tuesday, March 18, 2008

drama drama drama.
its time to end.
i shall be the first lead to die.
and leave this drama for good.
lingering and lingering. what do i get?
hurt, pain, tears. and the list goes on.

ya. so wad if everyone thinks that its unfair to me?
truth and reality just wouldnt change for me.
ya. so much so of believing this is 'reality'.
i can only have all myself to blame.

one belief that is left.
the one that i love is gone. for good.

i have only myself to depend on.
the end of story.
a cruel and painful one.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:08 PM

childhood fren might be right.
when will this drama end?
and its time to exit from this emotional roller coaster ride and move on to smth else.
why why why.
why do i want to take this roller coaster ride at all?

seeing the paragraph.
heart pounded, eyes watered, blood gushing.
why. why do i want to be so affected?

ya.
u have moved on. so quickly that i cant even imagine.
wadver u say changes everyday.
so wad now?
to believe that u guys wun be an item?
and tml, all these will be a facade.
so wait. wads all these shit for?

~~dun u tink u are just being a little cruel to me?~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:04 AM

Monday, March 17, 2008

realized the hatred in me now.
din realize it at all.
its just ~~fucking~~ spoil my day.
how wish i can punch u into ur face.
and say yes, i did this on purpose.

whose pain is greater now?
was it urs or mine?

wad a way to start my week.
~~fuck off~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 8:28 AM

Sunday, March 16, 2008

i regret.
to trust u.
a halt just in time, before hurt is done.
another human playing ard the 4 letter word.
u dun deserve love at all.
~~f* you~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:59 PM

i am totally lost sometimes.
and i do not know wad to do.

realised a few good pointers which i should believe in.
everyone is a clear suface.
pain and hurt are the super-duper-difficult-cleared-dirt.
when hurt is done, these dirt will adhere themselves to the clear suface.
the dirt will only be cleared after much effort put in and also when time goes by.
when someone sets in again, this someone will be the paint to cover up the old suface of u.
it covers the dirt if they are not cleared.
when this someone leaves again, the layer of paint will be gone as well.
wads left is more dirt and the old suface of u.
the amt of dirt is too much to be removed by then.
pain wil be unbearable as well.

love is simple. and its just a kind of an emotion.
its just human race that makes it complicated.
as they desire, they configure in a way that they want love to be.
in the end, humans are unable to excute the simple value of those 4 letters.
treasure love, make it simple.

yes.
i got to admit that i still have feelings.
i still love and i still miss.
but give me time, one day, i will stop loving and missing.
i will.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:43 PM

oh no.
i tink my mind is screwed.
sheesh.
this is not good at all.
better wake up before anything regretful happens.
*slaps*

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:35 AM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

stay over was nice (:
though our activities were not as packed as it was supposed to be.
in conclusion, we...
shopped for food, played bridge and bball, cooked (haha. nice), watched tv, sang, soaked ourselves in jacuzzi(for 2 hours!!!), bathed, had supper(goodnessly sinful, but nice dim sum), had alittle bit of beer, slp.
and next morning, cooked (again, buang to the max), clear up, attempted to watch step up but we all slp, home sweet home.

its tiring but fun.
i had muscle ache all over and my nose is running vigorously.
thats not good.
feel that the sickly virus are camping in my body now.
oh noo...

it feels good to chat till our lungs out.
rmb-ing the past, how do we gt to know each other, the changes.
its a long long long journey, it will and definetly will go on (:
cant really exclude anybody out of this life journey, everyone who has been with me for these few years, ur names are mentioned. haha.
i guess all of u would have felt some itchness in the ear.

i guess sometimes things will just change when something procedes for a year.
this is how life is like.

and. i just hate to wake up every morning.
it has been haunting me for weeks.
when will this stop?

so many songs that can depict how i am feeling.
and i really think tanya's songs are too oh my god-ing emo.
but they just reflect the truth and the reality.
i guess only those who have onced loved, understand the songs even more.

managed to bang into someone's blog.
oh well. could see myself in them.
how much they love, how much they gave each other, comes to nth in the end.
15 mths as well.
gosh. unlucky number.
what she says is true.
odd couples get tgt, be it the ugly or pretty.
envy them as they have someone to embrace, to share, to love.
but we...
have no one.
oh well. i just treat it as part and parcel of life.
~~f* it.~~

this entry is getting a little too long.
shall stop.
back to work.
geeeeee....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 7:33 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008

freezing...
when will this coldness stop?
not just the weather.

haha.
oh well..
so much so of saying all the nicey words.
but they dun mean anything at all?
is this wad u really want?
i jus dun like it when someone doesnt reply my msg (:
but again, there are still ppl who can still cheer u up.
my presence in ur life doesnt matter anymore.
haha. how insignificant i am.

i guess i have really good 6th sense.
all these are wad i have peredicted all along.
thanks for making it come true.
should i even thank you for that?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:49 AM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

that epi has been stuck in my head for the whole day.
after much thoughts, i feel that i am jodi.
oh gosh. how dumb.

yest had weird dreams.
dreamt of gg to some expedition. and had to climbed up a hill where sands are lose.
then see myself in a toilet. lots of cubicles. i think i was planning to bath. but i din.
and a few numbers appeared. haha.
then i wanted to get a black tie. i found one but i gave to someone who needs it urgently.
time to understand what it means.

Sand -To see sand in your dream, signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. Consider also the familiar phrase, "the sands of time" in which it may be suggesting that you are wasting your time or letting time pass you by.
Toilet - To see a toilet in your dream, symbolizes a release of emotions or getting rid of something in your life that is useless.
Tie - To see or wear a tie in your dream, represents your obligations and relational bonds. The dream may also be a pun on feeling tied down to a situation or relationship.

somehow it means i am troubled by some r.s problems and it is a waste of time. and i should release my emotions or to get rid smth that is useless.
cool.
so wad should i do?
dreams can be so unhelpful sometimes.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:36 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

forget. forget. forget.
its the best antidote now.

"b and t should have stayed together.
they should have the courage to work it out.
and not just running away from each other like that"

is this coincidence or it just happens everytime?
are they really meant for each other?
have they not tried?
someone please enlighten me.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 8:43 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008

great.
screwed up my stats quiz.
a big C.
what a good time to take a quiz after all the drama.
f*

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:09 AM

Sunday, March 09, 2008

taking back all my words.
i am just being naive.
thanks for allowing me to realise this.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:57 PM

wad a thing to do in the afternoon.
its not as though i am free.
but somehow, i cant resist myself from doing it.

the past.
they are really missed by me.
before all the unhappiness that sets in.
love at its purest form.
i wish to go right back into the past.

can u feel it around you again?

so many words that i wish to say.
but. i am not in any status to say so. right?
do u have any words for me as well?

so many wishes.
but none can come true.

~~i wish to embrace you once again. i really wish to.~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 4:32 PM

hohoho.
my tutorials are not done.
and i have not listened to the online lecture.
save me~~~

hehehe.
sometimes i have no idea how i am feeling.
does this mean i have recovered?
or?
so. i have concluded to be a smiling-without-feeling freak!
isnt it a nice name?
(:

enough of the s word i tink.
s word will just mean:
i cant do anything but to say that.
i dun tink i want to do anything.
i dun want to try to tink wad i can do.
i wish to put a stop to this.
and is it not supposed to be mentioned at all?
~~hahahaha~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:16 PM

Saturday, March 08, 2008

its getting really...
tired.
draggy.

its becoming to be...
an imaginary.
a masked truth.

i am becoming...
a hypocrite.
a clown wearing a mask.
a smiling-without-feeling freak. (:

a forced....
smile.
haha.
(:

haha. do u know how to differentiate a haha or a HAHA?
do u know how to guage the intensity of a (: ?

so, should this blog exist at all?
hahaha.
i wonder...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 4:13 PM

life is really interesting.
we just go round and round.
past to present. present resembles past.
so interesting.
when will i see the end to it?

wei qi ar wei qi, its time to tink of urself ler.
why are your emotions controlled by others?
when will you lead the life that you really want?
to be bothered or upset or pissed by the same person will not do any good to you, you know?
its time to take this person out of ur life, wei qi.
*bang*

the path to recovery.
was is meant for me or ?
it jus shows how much i love others than myself.
and i guess.
humans shouldnt take things for granted.
goody stuff are not just there for u.
they are there for a reason.
and u need to treasure.

sometimes its just impossible to get the most out of both.
when will this ever going to stop?
haha.
life goes round and round.
past to present. present resembles past.

jia you lor~ to all.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:45 AM

Friday, March 07, 2008

gosh.
sometimes i really wonder whats gg on.
i am glad. but at the same time i am annoyed.
i guess i dun deserve this ba.

how funny.
i seem to be forced to feel for what went on 2 months ago.
currently i am playing the role of someone. and at the same time my feelings are of the another person.
gosh.
to let me go thru this, will allow me to be more understanding?
i rather not know or understand.

i really have no idea wad to do.

and my godddd.
projects and presentations are killing me.
tutorials.
kill me pls. now!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 9:01 PM

Thursday, March 06, 2008

watched P.S I love you.
gosh.
its such an emo movie to watch.
but it gets me down to some thoughts.

is it really human beings that are 'jian'?
they only start loving only someone has left?
or they only realised how impt someone is to them when someone is gone?
sigh.
i dun want regrets.
i really dun wish to feel how the main lead is feeling.
it really hurts i guess.

slowly,
i tink i know the feeling.
i know how u felt in the past.
sorry for forcing it to go on.

we will recover.
we will.

and wei qi, u got to wake up.
really wake up.
u are behaving like holly.
is one year wad u need?
wei qi, please.. wake up.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:01 AM

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

你最近还好吗 S.H.E

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

*问自己习惯了吗没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
**你最近还好吗是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

*
** **

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:43 AM

sometimes, some stuff are just not meant for me to see or know.
i have finally realised that.
thanks.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:29 AM

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

gosh.
i tink i am such a weirdo.
a major one.
why am i feeling guilty?
why do i feel sorry?
why?
why am i still concern?
can someone please answer me?
please... i want the answer....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 8:58 PM

oh my gosh.
first time in history.
i actually... pon lesson!!!!
haha..
i am so amazed by myself. and i feel alright to pon.
gosh. this is not a good sign.

too much of that show might not be good.
being too engrossed makes someone wanting to be in the shoes of the cast.
i guess its happening.
or should i say, it has happened.

life is just unpredictable.
i guess its really important to treasure whoever that is around u.
treasue the love, the friendship, the kinship.
humans are just weird creatures.
they will only know how to treasure when things are gone.
its time to learn.
its time to realise.

chu xiang, i am touched by your determination and optmisitic.
no matter what, i will always be here for u.
yup. all of us need missy poh. u are the one and only missy poh we need. (:
and really big thank you to u.

amanda...
i love u to bits.
haha.
and i promise, this love will never go off.
u will always be my dar.
eh... i mean wad i say k ^^

thanks to those who cared.
sharon, pei zhen, grace, brenda, mdm howe (weird), uni frens.
thank you.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 3:03 PM

Sunday, March 02, 2008

我最深爱的人伤我却是最深
进退我无权选择紧紧关上心门留下片刻温存
只怕还有来生我爱的依然最真
我最深爱的人伤我却是最深教人无助的深刻
点亮一盏灯温暖我无悔情春燃尽我所有无怨的认真

我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我还是明白你已不想挽回什么
谁爱得太自由谁过头太远了谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走谁忘了看着我谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

紧紧相依的心如何 say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己完成你的期盼

虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
别再看着我
说着你爱过别太伤痛
我不难过这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂
不要再说或许这是最好的结果
现在分手总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手离开你左右我向前走
这会是我真正的解脱

雨后的城市寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位它空着在等谁
我拉住时间它却不理会
有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰
风停了又吹我忽然想起谁
天亮了又黑我过了好几岁
心暖了又灰世界有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类
爱收了又给我们都不太完美
梦作了又碎我们有几次机会去追
不晓得为什么爱又稀少又昂贵
云在半空中被微风剪碎
回忆也许美可是正在飞走对不对

how am i supposed to understand?
clueless.
but should i be bothered at all? no idea.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 5:25 PM

woohooo.
my hand is getting itchy.
my anger has built up beyond the level that my EQ can control.
i really wish to do smth.
can u fulfill my wish?
its easy.
just a tight slap on ur face.
is it possible?
haha.

lalalala.
mad mad mad.
who wants to join in the madness club?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:23 AM

Saturday, March 01, 2008

upset pissed high mad
upset pissed high mad
upset pissed high mad
upset pissed high mad

haha. at this rate. i might snap!
hahahahhahahahahahahahahahaha......!
get away from me before i point a knife at u.
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
hahahaha.......!

and wow.
weather is so god damn cold.
come on! freeze my heart!
freeze freeze freeze!!!
hahahahahaha.....!