Friday, August 31, 2007

its over. over.
felt nth when its over.
was just trying to balance myself between the gains and losses.
did managed to learn smth from it.

i could only blame myself for this.
i could have done better.
i could have be more careful.
sigh.
worse is to bring the disappointments to all of you - tigger, amanda, brenda and mum too.
thanks for all the encouragements.
thanks for giving positive comments.
they are words to comfort me, i know.
thats not the truth isn't it?

i guess i need time again. to be able to face up myself.
but time is just so short.
in less than 5 hours, i am gg to face it again.
i am not fit to do so anymore.
i suck.

sorry sorry sorry.
thats the only word that i can say to u guys.
sorry...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:30 AM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

yest was yanzi day..
and she so god damn SKINNY.
oh man... i hope someone could just stuff food into her mouth la.
but her performance is superb!!!
she is not called as my 'god' for nth. haha.

well. thanks to them.
esp to a few of them.
well, we dun seems to deserve wad they had offered.
but. really thank them ba. ^^

its been a habit of mine to look into every single blog once a come online.
and recently, i will take note one of the blogs that only 2 person can visit. (haha... ya... u should know i am refering to ur blog!)
i am always touched by the words of the writer.
those words are to someone who will nv know.
how wish someone could jus say these words to me.
how i wish, i wish...
i guess the reason is rather simple.
some could get wad they want, but some just simply can't.
so they just dun treasure wadever they have.
sigh.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 6:10 PM

Saturday, August 25, 2007

SOng: Xiao Jing Teng's superman... he can sing cute songs too~~

Thats him!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 3:05 AM

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

tiring day.. fm reports are making all of us crazy~

well. din expect this to happen.
i have neglected this. i have neglected the fact that such incidents will happen.
i know. there is nth wrong wif it.
and i shouldn't be so bothered.
but who dun?
onli those who doesn't care i guess.
sigh.
tell me wad should i do to make myself feel better?
tell me wad should i do to leave this matter alone?
i wish to hear...
i wish to feel...
sigh.
i am just dumb. dumb. dumb.

realised how fragile it can be.
its just too..... fragile.

sigh sigh sigh.
really wonder wad are the tears for.
they were jus shed for nth, isn't it?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:11 AM

Monday, August 20, 2007

weekends are gg to be over soon.
and i tink i din do much.
sheesh.
i tink i should start running soon... rah.

finally installed my printer. hopefully the ink will last long.
and finally went down to collect my mouse.
shopped ard, but couldn't find any nicey clothes. )=

RAH RAH RAH.
i dun wish the same old stuff to happen again.
but sometimes it jus gets on my nerves.
RRRRAAAAHHHH!!!!!

sigh. all she can do is jus to express her love on the blog.
and that person will nv know.
to be a guardian angel and nth more.
this is the power of love rite?

alrights.
getting tired and ... sigh.
shall turn in soon.
hope to dream of some songs.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:12 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007

hectic week.
uni life is not that fun afterall.
hopefully i still have the time to meet up wif tigger, frens, and to spend more time wif jodi ((=

ok. went to brenda's hall to slp. haha. a very comfy room.
will visit it often. haha

ok. today is the day.
and i made it thru.
i am really surprised. surprised of getting thru, and wif someone on top of me who.... rah...
but well. all has got potential. shall let our potentials shine in the next rd~

big big thanks to those who went down wif me.
TIGGER!!!! i will kill u if u run off... haha...
DAR!!! its ok to look at me k.. haha..
BRENS!!! try to go for ur lessons hor... haha
thanks to xiang and sharon for ur concern and support~ ((=

will have to do smth abt it. ^^

ok. should i go for ECA tml?
haiz... i am tired.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:37 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007

sigh... weekends are over.
a rather long weekend.
no wonder i would dread gg to sch tml.. sigh.

and i am getting sick of printing lecture notes and tutorial every single week.
installed my damn printer, but it dun seems to work.
arrgh.
i really hate doing all these.
its really a waste of time. RAH!!

can someone jus bring me to the brighter side?
can motivation just knock on my door?

i know i am supposed to be independent.
i know i am still in that transistion stage of getting used to this life.
but i have this feeling of giving up.
but of cos, its not possible, and it would be a dumb choice to make.
worked so hard to get here.
but i dun seems to be treasuring this chance that i have now.
why why why?
i am feeling lost.
i dun seems to know wad i want.
i jus hope the enlightment day will soon arrive.
i dun wish to head off each day wif such silly questions and doubts abt life.

thanks to those who are concerned.
thanks to those who comforted me.
i really hope i could just say 'i am doing fine in uni' to u guys soon.
i really hope.
how long do i need to take?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:01 AM

Saturday, August 11, 2007

had a good holiday. well.. good times will always come to an end.

woke up super duper early on thurs to q for ndp. haha.
nah. went to ubin. my first time there.
the place is nice.
but too many ppl ard. a little too crowded.
cycled ard. and the rental shop gave me a smaller bike compared to the rest. wth.
am i that short?
arrgh.
then headed to merlion park. ended up at the bridge.
we can't see anything from the stage.
the screening... is beyond hope.
but the stunts done were fantastic.
and the fireworks! woohoo. nicey~
and thanks for not losing me along the way ^^

went k box on friday.
we got the big room.
its really nice to sing in there.
i guess i sang too much.
and i am coughing now )=

a day of tutorial today.
feeling unwell too. sigh.
and i got my lapppy today!
haha... happy. but i have some queries abt it. shall check it out tml.

thurs is the day.
and i am still sick.
keeping my fingers crossed.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:16 PM

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

i great head start of the day today - i was lost.
its time to spend some time discovering the campus. its too big!
and rah! they should have just told us that we have reached max AUs.. and i wouldn't have wasted so much time searching for electives. arrgh... pissed.

first lecture... business law. oh my goodness. got to read up more. the lecture notes... sucks.
accounting... its more interesting cos it has to do wif some maths.
i realised i love maths... is it too late to realise this now?

alrights. sometimes its rather good to allow nature to take its course.
sometimes they are just out of our control.
no matter how it evolves, changes or transforms... we jus have to accept it rite?
hopefully sch is busy enuff to keep my mind off that track of thoughts.
its really tiring to get onto the same train of thoughts every now and then.

the rule to follow - get prepared for the changes.

changes are always wad i hate to see.
but somehow, changes take place in the routine of sunrise and sunset.
its the time and effort that one could afford to get use to the changes.
i know i could overcome it.
i am just afraid of the shortage of time i could afford.

let it be, let it be.
even if tears are to be shed.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:16 AM

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

sigh...

uni life has started. and i am so not sued to it.
i dun seems to be motivated in any sense.
i guess the break is jus too long...
so how long do i need to keep my momentum working?

really dun wish to be bothered by other stuff already.
just let it be..
hoping too much will just bring disappointment.
i have said this countless time.
can someone jus prove this wrong?

i am really not used to it.
i dun like how things are like now.
can someone just kill me?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:22 AM

Saturday, August 04, 2007

ella has broken wif her bf. its just 2 months and 13 days. a rather short one.
but yup. its a courage to do so, isn't it?

分手是Ella提的，當晚聽完張懸演唱會後，她到夜店等Josh等到凌晨2時半，她氣他沒電話、也沒現身，但忙著工作的Josh則覺得又沒說好要碰面，就這樣一個小爭吵，讓心中一直有分手念頭的Ella提出來，她感歎，出國度假前吃了飯，回來也沒見到面，就分手了，「這兩個月裡，兩人就是看電影、吃吃飯、聊聊天、再看電影、吃吃飯、聊聊天，然後就沒有了。」
i guess josh should have known that ella would be waiting for him. is he just being insensitive? a time to meet, shouldnt both to be treasuring the time when esp time for them are limited? one is desperately graping hold of every single min left, but the other just ignore. its getting imbalanced, isn't it? one who treasures so much than the other. sigh.

「我想，與其我一直改變自己去遷就他，不如就結束吧。」 quoted by ella.
effort has made to understand the other and to put up a high level of patience. effort has gone to waste when the other party has taken advantage of the patience and understanding given. hoping that effort made would change for the better. this will just bring on discouragement.

聽到Ella說Josh太忙，關心、電話其實「不多」時，姊妹可不這麼客氣，Selina直言：「忙只是藉口！他沒有疼妳，沒有把妳放在人生第一順位。」
agreed too.
i guess ella jus wish to gain more attention from him. at least she would feel that he cares for her. not just words that are used to express how much u love one person. when actions do not compliment words, words are just rubbish. excuses and excuses. when excuses are used, it just explains everything. they are just not meant to be tgt.

ella... i looked up to her courage to love someone, and to give up on someone when she tinks its time. it hurts. but its for the better isn't it?
thru out our life, we meet diff ppl. getting into a r.s is a phase to know that person better. unsuccessful ones are happening every now and then. if it ends, it just means the right one has yet to come. but its not the end of the world. take it easy. cos there will be better ones ahead.

wei qi, take it easy.
and i will.
i will, definitely.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:29 AM

alrights. the freshmen ceremony is... cra* but well. i dunno. i would rather not go.

its bad. very bad.
i am not happy at all.
the same old things that comes back.
there are no longer comforting words.
there is no assurance.
insecure once again.

i guess both are equally tired.
i just hate tears flowing.
i just hate wadever that i am feeling now.

the day will jus come.
its just a matter of time.
everything will jus go back to square one.
is it a bad choice to make this possible last year?

i have fallen too deeply.
but not u.

the game will soon have a result.
i will make sure i won't bleed to death.
i will stay strong.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:05 AM

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

its 3 am in the morning. here i am, still feeling awake.
will wake up at 10am, to check my timetable.
really wonder how uni life will be.
3 years. will pass really quickly i guess.
wonder wad will be the changes. be it me, frens, family or envt.
can't really predict them, isn't it?

3 years for me, 4 years for u.
additional 7 years for u.
a long way. a very long one.
how long can this go on? dun have any idea.
maybe another 1 month? or half a year? or till the day u leave?
assuming it carries on for 4 years.
4 years. lots of time are spent.
chances for others and for ourselves are wasted.
this seems like a game to be played. a game that will end sooner or later.
a game that hurts.
a game that doesn't have winners.
is this game worth the play?

till the day u leave, how much effort has to be put in to let go?
wonder how much tears have to be flowed to keep everyday going.

tinking of all these, realised how immatured we are, now.
taking up a game to hurt each other.
who's gonna bleed to death? i have no idea.

i jus need someone to bring me away.
bring me back to the peaceful world of mine.

说你爱我
变成一种问候
不如趁早放手
把爱坠落
让满地鲜红
说你爱我
变成一种折磨
不用陪我走到最后
我承担不起你的承诺

so true.