Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Sometimes… would you…

Sometimes I would feel terribly lonely,
Hoping you could just be by my side silently.
Would you be with me and embrace me tightly?

Sometimes you feel the loneliness engulfing you,
Would I even get a little signal from you?
Would you give me a chance to do something for you?

Sometimes I feel unwanted, not needed.
Would you whisper into my ear, console me, tell me how much I am wanted and needed by you?

Sometimes I hope I could say how much I miss you.
Would you hold my hand tightly and tell me that I am missed by you too?

Sometimes happy moments don’t seem to befriend us.
Would you hope for a change and look forward to them that are ahead of us?
Or would you feel like abandoning me like how they abandon us?

Sometimes I could be nasty and stubborn,
Would you still think of me as your precious or a burden?

Sometimes I tear for all the unhappiness between us,
Would you be wiping off my tears and tells me nothing is going to affect us?

Sometimes I could only see you in your eyes.
Would you explain it?

Sometimes… sometimes…
Would you choose to give up?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:18 AM

Monday, May 28, 2007

have not been updating.
and its been a long time since i blogged at home. and try blogging in this rectangle itself.
i am so used to typing all in microsoft words, and copying everything into this box.

had a rather tiring weekend. din have much time to rest.
but at least met up with my dar and shopped ard town. and to immerse myself in the GSS atmosphere.
walking along the roads of town, sometimes din really cheer me up. was rather heavy hearted at some point of time. feeling the same as i am typing this post.
feeling so soul-less.
maybe i am just tired. i am not sure.

i dun wish anyone to play around with my trust.
esp those whom i trust.
please, dun let me feel discouraged again.

history is always repeating again and again.
words said many times, effort made. changes were made too.
but it goes back to the same again. back to square one.
i am tired of repeating. i am tired of speaking in a tone that does not affect anyone.
i am tired of begging for the change again.
i am tired of facing what it is now today.
i am really really tired.
wad can i do? wad can i exactly do to change this?
am i the one a fault?
am i not putting much effort enuff to remind you?
i hate to see faults in you. i hate to blame you. i hate to correct you.
why do u want me to do this to you?
i dun want to hate you. i dun want to...
i dun wish the day will come... the day when i hate you.

distance of a stream, will soon lead to a river and to a sea.
and i feel this happening.
nth can be done?
maybe ignorant is what u choose.
or you dun really understand me?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 9:31 PM

Friday, May 25, 2007

Haven been blogging for a few days.
Most of my time spent on drawing.
But I am rather satisfied.
Hope you like it too~

Oh my.. I feel so god damn tired now. Feel like sleeping.
And my dear colleague suggested that I should go to the toilet and sleep.
Haha. but it will be really funny when u wake up and realized is 5.30 pm.
U will be blacklisted for life la. Haha.
hope drinking teh tarik helps.

Yest’s fish & co was nice. Full to the max.
Great food, great ambience, great company ^^
And I really dun wish the bread be infested by the moulds.
Turning them from white to blue, green, grey, black.
Should just throw away now. Not even fresh eating them ler.

GSS begins today~
Shall go for shopping trip every now and then.
I need shirts, bags, shorts, heels and maybe skirts.
Dun be surprised to see wei qi in skirts. ^^

35 more days to the end.
I guess I will miss some of the people here.
If the last December has the same situation as now, I wouldn’t have dreaded coming to work.
But well, at least it is what it is now.

Recapped of ai qing hai~
Love the place. Love the sound system.
It’s a place where I wish to work.
Haha. but its not possible.
Din do well that day. Disappointed.
I know where I stand.

木船 is nice too.
should I or should I not?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 9:57 AM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Alrights!
The idol craze will be back soon.
Next fri is the ‘exchange of album cover session’. Its at 7pm. Should I take leave?
And 8th to 10th june will be YiDA days~~
Oh well. Hope all turns out right ^^

Both male 933 djs are injured. They are my favourites. )=
Hope they recover soon~

一天又过去了。
有老了一天。
发现自己忽略一些事和人。
我是否把自己关密起来，只生活在一个小小的生活圈？
当自己知道已错过了一些事，感觉真的不好受。
但我又如何把我的注意力放在所有的事上呢？
我有如何有时间来面对着一切？
又是一种力不从心的感觉。
也有一种责备自己的感觉。
我应该预防这一类事情的发生。
但我没有。
真的，人只有在失去事才会体会到人或事的重要性，
只能让历史不再重演。
不要让自己一错再错。

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:28 AM

Monday, May 21, 2007

Monday~
First day of work.

Din update much of the ‘happenings’ last week.
But I had a nice weekend.
Sat
K box day.
I always enjoy k box.
But the feeing of singing alone in the room is weird.
The emo-est part of all.
Biggest joke was the ordering of food.
三个鱼，三个鸡！
Haha. luckily these is no duck bento. Haha…

Clarke quay.. the seats of kopitiam is sleep-inducing man.
Really comfortable.

Yest was jus another tv day for me.
But I just enjoy watching tv.
CSI supreme Sunday only on AXN (=

Sigh.
有时真的想让自己不再去往那想。
但就是力不从心。
我也没有勇气面对现实。
就像一只缩头乌龟。
有很多话想说，有很多疑问希望能被解答。
但问了，是否是我要的答案？
我是否会快乐？
不问，不说是保护自己的唯一方法。
让自己穿上那装甲，避免那些无恶意的攻击在身上留下痕迹。
我不能怪任何人。
要怪也只能怪自己没有勇气，自信，毅力。

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:50 PM

Friday, May 18, 2007

Its Friday~
Finally. A need a rest.

Today is just not my day.
I got so really irritated with all the people walking past me.
That sets me thinking. Are you guys too free? Or u guys have got nothing better to do? Or cause its Friday, and there is no mood to work?
Damn it. well. Its not first time I am sitting there. But this is really getting on my nerves.

Flu and cough have migrated.
But there is always a new challenge ahead of me everyday.
Headache )=

I want my k box. But my throat… sigh.

Oh man. My mind goes blank.

Hmm… sometimes I envy what others have.
But do I exactly want them?

Get well soon, Amanda!

Take care everyone (=

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:35 AM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Finally.
Having some time to blog.

Sunday~
Slp and woke up early.
Slp at 5.30 am and woke up at 9 am. Haha.
Woke up and realized I am down with flu and cough.
Sianzation
Then, Headed off to vivo city. saw Brens and bel.
As usual, someone was still asleep when I call. 3 cheers~

Took the express train to sentosa.
Though the train travels rather slowly, time taken to bring us to beach station is rather short.
Walked all the way to siloso beach and to the hut.
The hut is really small. But its really cute. Cosy.
But the air con seems to be weird.
It feels rather warm at 18 degrees, and felt super cold at 23 degrees.
It works the other way round.

Walking ard sentosa at night is rather fun.
Seems like sentosa is mine~ haha.
But its rather creepy at some areas.
The huge merlion has red eyes. Oh man…

Walked passed the entrance of the song of the seas.
Audiences were admitting.
And we managed to walk cross the entrance, just a left turn, and we can get in!
But we have no courage.
Haha. but its malu if caught.
So watched it from some leveled area.
Not too bad. The effects are beautiful.
I like the fire, the water, the fireworks!
That’s like everything.

back to hut, slp like a pig.
Couldn’t even wake up for sun rise. )=

And guess wad, I din take any photos!
I rox…
But they are all captured in my brain. ^^

Monday~
We met Amanda for 28 weeks later.
Haha. can see that all 3 of us are freaked out.
Damn bloody. Expected that.
Hands were my shield, my bag was amanda’s, my shirt was ni zai’s.
It’s a rather exciting show la.
Effects were done up in the way that you feel those creeps.
3 stars that I will give.

A holiday for us. Holidays are not meant to be long.
Back to reality~

Work is rather hectic. But its still manageable.

Woohoo… today is a happy day~
Its my blog song ya. How would I not know ^^

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:07 AM

Sunday, May 13, 2007

feel totally defeated once again.
i have no more confidence.
it happens again and again.
another round of eyes cleansing.

flu monster is here. so is cough monster.
hopefully they will be gone soon.

i am never independent, i realised...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:43 AM

Friday, May 11, 2007

Its Friday~~~
Last day of work for the week.
Weekends are coming~

Mother’s day is round the corner but I have got no idea what to get for her.
Looking thru the advertisements of SK. Some looks awesome. But the price can be WOW.
But some are considered affordable.
Will take a trip to one of the shops later~
Hm.. would she prefer a meal or a gift?

I have gotten by yanzi gai ban!
Woohoo..
And amazingly, the dvd works on my dvd player.
I love piao zhe mv.
Loves the expression when she is screaming her lungs out.
She is jus so pretty!!!
I want yanzi !!!

I have finished the first book of the year.
And now continuing with the second book.
And I am totally amazed.
I can feel for the main character.
The book just expresses how I am feeling now.
Though this is not the main message that the author wished to convey.
But still.
Its as though I am reading my own journal.
Shall try to finish the book soon.

Heard s.h.e’s album is gg to be delayed.
Can’t get the disc today )=

Ok. I am bored now.
But all the work will only come when it’s an hour or so to knock off.
Sigh.
More work to come next week. But I dun really mind.

Secondary school days are missed by you.
I really wonder if i am part of it.
I just wish I am not forgotten totally.
Cos I have not forgotten.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:23 PM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Its Wednesday~ 2 more days of work!
Woohoo…

Watched spiderman 3 yest~
Its nice!
But its really tormenting to see Harry died.
Most importantly, misunderstanding btw Harry and Peter was cleared.
The housekeeper should just clarify la. Arrgh.

We always have choices…
forgiving or revenging.
being a devil or an angel
being happy or sad
labeling someone as ur fren or foe.
We choose the choices, but not letting the choices to choose us.
I believe everybody can have the ability to choose.
Choices are not there to lose yourself.

I am bored.
Another 1 hour more…
Soon will be the choice btw 200 pounds beauty and 28 weeks later.

Life is full of choices.
We are given so many choices that we end up contradicting ourselves. .
It’s a blessing to have choices, right?
Dun see them as troubles.

Oh well. My ulcers are getting bigger.
Should I put salt or not?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 4:19 PM

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Well well well…
Negative thoughts crowded by mind again.
can’t really shake them off.
Felt like some invisible souls.
Not noticeable. No sense of belonging. Existence seems redundant.
Well well well.

Saw trailer of 28 weeks later.
Oh gosh. I want to watch!!!
But I know I will have sleepless nights after watching it.
And get frightened by an insect or even papers flying around.
Shall challenge myself~
Who is willing to take up the challenge with me?
Haha.

Haha. a book can actually scares me.
I am so… toot.
“Truth is the safest Lie”

Spiderman 3 or 200 pounds beauty?

53 more days till the end of contract.
I could still rmb I started off with 80 odd days.
Time really flies.
To be exact, 37 days left minus off weekends and holidays.
I am somehow proud of myself.
and 37 days of nth to first day of sch~

Alright.
Ulcer, sore throat.
Wads next?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:13 PM

Monday, May 07, 2007

Alright. Had a rather relaxing weekend.
No shopping. Haha. that’s good. Cos I can save money~
Sentosa!!!!

Watched the movie that I longed to watch. Since last year may?
Haha.
Nice movie.
A common item can have different symbolization.
Life struggles that they encounter. Just so real.
I want to watch again~

Huan zhu ge ge can be quite a drag.
The whole of 2 epi are on the death of erkang.
Not unstoppable crying of ziwei and the parents.
How wish I could just run into the scene and wake them up.
But I guess I would just be like them when I lose someone whom I love.
But still, a nice show~

Met up with yoges.
We are always the nosiest.
Haha. really wonder if there are pubs and clubs that play Chinese songs.
And we can hear jolin’s songs~
Jing tian (today!), ming tian (tml!), gai bian( change!) zai jian (BYE!)
Haha…
I tink pubs ‘SUIT’ play these songs. Hahaha…
Yoges and me are business ‘suitdents’ haha…
Get the joke? Haha..

Yanzi’s gaiban today!
Hopefully I could get it today ^^

Reading the book. Still life with crows.
Only the first 100 pages.
But its gross in the beginning.
Oh my…
And I was reading it when I am having my lunch.
I rock.

And my mp3 died.
Was happily ripping all yanzi songs into my com yest.
So I could listen to all her songs while working.
And thanks to me… I forget to charge it -.-
I rock.

Totally random-fied entry.
Shows how random I am today ^.*

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:45 PM

Friday, May 04, 2007

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:58 PM

Thursday, May 03, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRENDA!!!
Haha… getting older… tsk tsk.
Oh no.. forget to take photo of the starfruit juice. But thanks ya!!!

Work is boring today. Yest was god damn hectic.
Yest din even have much rest. Just lunch break.
And I took 30 mins of my lunch to work.
I am so hardworking ^^

Listened to ni guang album twice while working today.
i am bored.
I want to go home!

My mum is funny.
Bcos of me, she has got to watch yanzi’s concert thrice.
And she likes ai qing de hua yang and guan yu. (not forgetting ni guang and gugi gugi)
And she doesn’t like the slow songs.
I will forced xuan wo into her ears!
And one fine day she will say she likes xuan wo..

The concert is kind of fake.. some parts la…
Shall not elaborate..
But her performance for an ning is nice!! *thumbs up*

Life is just like roller coaster rides.
In every stage of ur life, a new coaster ride.
Ups and downs.
Calm and worked up.
Highs and lows.
And my ride seems to be rather challenging.
Dun even see the bends ahead.
A change will take place in each and every second.

The ride will come to and end.
Do u care abt the process or the destination?
The process of getting hurt, afraid, disappointed. The process that also brings you joy, happiness.
Destination is just back to the dot where u started off.
Before the ride ends, all of us could get stronger, get to try out smth new.
The ride is just the process of growing up.
Here comes the controversy.
One would say. “The ride is dangerous, y even take that ride?”
Another will say “if u dun even try, how do u know its fun rather than dangerous?”
One cares more of the destination, the other cares abt the process.
Who will u be?

Experienced a day without tv, without my cable tv.
Realized how much I needed them.
I guess my tv will jus be laughing at me.
Maybe getting proud as it knows I can’t live without it.
Relying. Can I just stop relying?
To stop myself being treated as a joke, I will choose to depend on others for entertainment.
My tv will stil has got its value. My mum would still depend on it.
But how does it really feel when it loses someone who depended on it in the beginning?
Will it regret?
Does it want this to happen at all?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:15 PM

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