w e i q i ; her L i F e ; her S t O R y

Friday, March 30, 2007

=.=

Last day of work for the week.
Finally.
A dreadful and emo week I would say.

Ok.
I am now sitting at a super no privacy seat.
I guess the worse of all seats.
I am like the security of the boss.
And a ‘human display’
Words can’t really describe how much I hate this seat.
Hate this arrangement.
Yes. I use ‘hate’.

I really wish they could jus fire me.
Told my mum.
And she rox. She told me to be on msn even the boss is looking at me.
So they will fire me… haha.
I guess she understands how I feel.
My mummy rocks!

Alrights.
Tml will be having dinner wif my dearest bio teacher and classmates.
A long awaiting dinner.
but not sure where to eat though. Haha.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:39 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Sigh.
Can’t really describe how I am feeling now.
A little bit more of disappointments, unhappiness and unsatisfaction.
Mainly from work I guess.

Work has been suppressing me.
Just show how minute I am, how useless I am, and how redundant I am .
Dun feel the sense of belonging.
Not being respected for.
Yup. I know I am just a TEMP. but still. I am still human.
Start to feel like I am being used for. A free labour.
‘hey, help me do this by this morning can?’
can I say no?
this can happen from any department.
They rox. Rox a big time.

Really wish the contract could just end now. Right now.
Totally discouraged.
Seating along the walking pathway.
Totally no privacy.
Wads more can I say? I am jus a TEMP!
Fuck.

Sigh.
Can’t be really bothered abt other stuff.
Tired.

Maybe I am just being too pampered.
Nice pp lard me since young.
Fail to realize how fortunate I am.
Ha. And now, treated like dirt.

3 months.
dreadful 3 months.
deadly 3 months.

Finding Understanding Concluding Knowing

Purely Writen by weiqi at 4:35 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

i am not perfect!

Another day.
Sick of work once again.
But I should love it, cos it takes up most of my time.

How wish I can also be as busy.
Believe me.
Dun mind getting tired over things that I am doing on.
As long as I can distracted, maybe I will be happier.

Demanding, not understanding, impatient.
Use all these words on me.
I dun mind at all.
Cos these words just describe me.
Suits perfectly on me.
I am not perfect.

If u were me, how would u feel?
空虚， 寂寞， 无奈， 失望。
Maybe u will never understand.
And maybe I will never understand u feel now.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 9:11 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

arrgh

Feeling cold and tired.
Tried to sleep during lunch, but some colleagues are super considerate.
Talk so loudly, as if they want the ppl t the end of the room to hear them.
And I guess I slp for 10 mins? I tink less than that.
Arrgh!

Oh gosh..
Feeling so disappointed.
This feeling suck. Maybe I am jus being too mean to myself.
But, there is a need to set some standards for myself.
Dun tink I am demanding too much from myself.
Ok. I tink I am insane.

I want my voice back!
)=
Disappointment.

Shall get myself entertained.
Not waiting for others to entertain me.

Dunno wad to blog.
Will change blog song soon~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:30 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007

sleepy

Weekends over.
But I managed to get some sleep. BUT. I am still tired.
Aging. I guess that’s the reason.
Slp on sat night from 1 am to 11.30pm.
But I am still tired.
Piggy teo…
And thats me ^^

Ok. Not a really good news.
Feel sorry for u, Mus.
Hope u are doing fine k.
Like wad wendy says, she will be in rabbit heaven.
Stay strong k.
Cya soon too~~
Cheer up~

Hmm.. can’t really imagine how would I react if someone leaves me, leaves this world.
Well. I tried imagine that on a person whom is really impt to me.
Lying in a nailed wooden box, no longer breathing, moving, talking.
No longer responding to me. No longer irritating me. No longer smiling to me.
No longer teasing me and make me happy.
Imagining all these can just make me tear.
No way will I let this happen.
But. This is the cycle of life isn’t it.
Only thing that we can do is to treasure.
Treasure every single time and moment wif my loved ones, lovely frens.
I LOVE U GUYS!

Ok… shall not be so emo.
Be happy! ^^

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:47 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

NI GUANG!

Yeah~~~
Yanzi’s album is in my hand..
MUAHAHAHA

Waited so long for this 10th baby of yanzi.
Yes. It’s the 10th album.
Have been repeatedly listening to it.
Not too bad.
But the number of ballet is overwhelming.
Abt 6 songs.
And stories go abt, how much yanzi love the person, but they broke up and yadada.
They are nice. But they shouldn’t be all in one album.
Can be kept for the next album. Haha.
Fast songs. Really little. And a little disappointed.
Wish for songs like BEN, MENG BU LUO….
But.. haha.. none.

Cute, dramatic song ---- gugi gugi.
The very bimbotic English rap.
Its cute la.

Best song now.
安宁
Love the chorus.
我努力的想哭泣却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的灰心才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己已经不在乎你
原来分手也能如此安宁
SAD!!!

Emo ppl should not listen to this album. Really.
Overall a good job done, yanzi!

Watched我怀念的 mv.
Tear-able man.
Esp the last scene.
So much of not being able to let go.
Showing the really strong side of her, a fake yet convincing smile to the bf.
A firm grab hold of the photo they taken when they were together at her back.
Oh my my my…
Director is good.
Flashbacks of them together.
The photos. Oh my tian..
Though it’s a less than 5 mins film, could see how happy they were in the past.
Yanzi’s acting skill is good too~
Set everything to fire, regretted, tried extinguishing them, failed, running off reality--- an end to this relationship.
9.9/10 for this mv!

Alrights! Look forward to her auto session and the SK event. Wohoo~~
But her hair…
Haha…

Ok..
Shall rest a little during weekend.
Tired..

Purely Writen by weiqi at 4:18 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

today is the day!!!

Today is the day!
Yanzi’s album!!!! Haha..
Really excited over it. ^^

Ok. Have not been doing much socializing these few days.
I want to go K BOX! I want to sing. Its been ages since I last sang. )= *hint hint*
I want to ECP to cycle!!! *hint hint*
I want to sleep… haha. lack of slp these few days.

Uni admission.
I am troubled once again.
I have changed business and out it as my first choice, but I feel like changing it again.
Fickled-minded me.
Can someone jus knock some idea into me?
God help me.

I wan to listen to yanzi’s new album!!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:50 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

)=

Hmm. Being left hanging in the air again.
Not really affected if I lose it.
I just need an answer, a confirmation.
Is it very difficult?
A feeling of being played around.
Well. I am nobody.

Felt that her attitude towards me has changed?
Am I just being too sensitive?
Or cos its early in the morning?
Or she knows something already?

Hmm. She seems to know smth already.
She seems to be able to read my mind.
Or cos I am being too obvious?

2 ‘she’ will make me go mad.
Hopefully I am the one just tinking too much.

Ups and downs I guess. I will be alright.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:41 AM

Monday, March 19, 2007

admit it...

Say that I am weak.
I shall just admit.

Lose control. Dam is opened.
Water gushes out.
A way to lower the pressure that accumulated in the reservoir.
A way to prove myself that I am weak.
A way to know myself better.

Emotionally weak. Mentally weak.
I am just being weak.
Admit it, wei qi. U are weak.
Shall not defend myself.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 3:37 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

(= )=

Its Thursday~
This week is coming to an end soon. Yes!
Not sure of the plans this weekend, but hope I dun waste it.

Kind of happy.
Heard a number of praises.
But will see on Friday. ^^

Oh. Did smth stupid early in the morning.
Dun wish to be too detailed cos its gross.
My ear bled.
Oh my my.its like horrible and disgusting.
Yucks.
Hopefully no infection.

Hmm. Happy that someone is finally back.
Heard a number of stories, guess it’s a fruitful trip for you.
Good good ^^

Felt like I am in a stock market. A small particular shares.
Unpredictable ups and downs.
Changes take place rapidly.
Not sure where will I end up…
If this is how life goes, then follow the flow.
That’s the best I can do.

Uni admission.
Still at lost.
Business or CS?
Someone just knock the ans into me pls.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:42 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

刺青

ok. Saw some preview of 刺青。
The show seems nice.
I wonder if Singapore will screen it. But I guess 99% chance will be a no no.
I want to watch!!!

Still feeling a little restless. Having a headache.
But I slept quite a fair bit yest.
I guess my brain is detesting work.
Gastric dun seems to be alright too.
Shall slp later during lunch.

Hmm. Everyone is gg overseas la.
And I am still stuck in Singapore. So sianz.
I want to go taiwen, hong kong, china…!!!
So many places to go. But bank acc doesn’t have enuff. Haha..

Was discussing abt uni stuff with mummy.
I guess everyone agrees that it is more practical to study business than to communication studies.
Media industry in Singapore is pathetically small.
How far can I go? And am I guarantee a job for sure?
As for business, there are so many choices.
Could carry out marketing and advertising in the media industry too.
And I can work in the media industry even studying business.
And it sounds so much like a better choice.
I do not need to go for selection course for business.
But communication studies. Damn it. Selection test. Eeks.
My mummy would want me to apply business as the first choice.
Hmm.. I dun mind actually…
Let me tink abt it again…
Another 15 days more for me to tink…

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:49 AM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Oh ya. I forget to mention smth.
An impt day for jodi.
An unforgettable day for jodi.
Haha.
The day which she took her first vaccination.

She was just nervous. Shivering and shaking when in my uncle’s car.
Then when she enters the vet clinic, she is just being so quiet. Haha. She is never like this at home.
Then. Here comes the jab.
She took 10 seconds to feel the pain and was squeaking. Maybe crying too.
Something wrong wif her nervous system. Took so long to feel the pain.
But she was calmed down immediately.

Then she is given the deworm med.
Thought she won’t want to eat it.
But she jus ate it like nobody’s business.
Haha. a obedient dog indeed.
I am such a nuisance when I am a kid taking med la.
Haha.

Doc says she might have fever for 2 days and wont feel like playing.
But… for the whole morning, she was pulling my pants, unwilling to let me out.
So energized. The zest of life in her.
Hopefully she dun get fever.

Good girl jodi!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:42 PM

i wan to slp...

Feeling a little restless.
6 hours of sleep dun seems to be enough for me.
Must be getting old. Haha.

I have finally registered for NTU.
I dun tink I am gg for other Uni.
My choices are kind of funny.
First choice: Communication studies
Second choice: Business ( haha.. have the urge to take business)
Third: Psychology
Forth: Sociology
Fifth Choice: Double degree of business and computing ( laugh ppl !)
Haha… I have got no idea why I choose that. But well .. it’s the fifth choice.

Business is only 3 years with direct honors. 3 years!!!
And I do need to go through interview and written test.
But for communication studies, its 4 years with direct honors. 200 applicants will be selected from the interviews. 10 % will be from poly… = 20 poly grads. That’s very pathetic.
Chances of getting in is seriously slim.
Shall just try my best. Not putting all my hopes on it.
I guess business course is not too bad.
Of cos, yanzi chose it! Haha..

Psychology and sociology.. after gg for the openhouse, I dun seems to know wad sociology is all abt. ‘you will study a relationship between u and the world. In the marco level, how u will affect the world. In micro level, how the world affects u.’ ok. It sounded so GP to me. But the student said its not really abt GP.
*stunned*
so wad is it exactly abt?
I dun tink I am fit to get in.

Wish to take a double degree. But there are only 2 choices. None of which is my interest.
I guess SMU provides a better choice for double degree courses.
Aiyo. Let me think again.

Haha. I dun seem to be ready for registration.
Only went for one openhouse.
Have totally given up NUS and SMU.
Should I do that?

Wish to apply for scholarships. But I dun have achievements la.
Sigh.
Shall give up on that.

Ok. Time passes really slowly.
I did registration and blogging and its only 11. 15am???!!!!
Arrgh…

Ok. Will blog if I am bored again later.
I miss the orange tiger.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:13 AM

Monday, March 12, 2007

^^

Alrights.
A fulfilling weekend.

Sat is a long day.
Went to NTU openhouse with Brenda.
And saw a lot of familiar faces.
My PJ senior… but I forgot her name.. opps.
Fiona~~~
And the highlight of the day! I saw my best fren in primary sch!!!
QIU YI!
I was still talking to Brenda, saying that how long I have last seen her. Kind of miss her.
Was totally amazed when I see her.
She is no longer the weak, small little girl in primary school.
She looks super tanned, tall, and looks… strong.. haha.. could see muscles. Canoeing is the culprit.
Wanted to chat with her and hopefully we will keep in contact again.
But… sigh.. our conversation is freezing.
Kind of sad.
I tink its really been too long.
The very last time I saw her was at yoges birthday party. That was like primary 5? Haha. 7, 8 years ago. Well… hopefully she studies in NTU. And Hopefully we are in the same course. Hope..
Saw a lot of PJ ppl there too..

Then headed off to ECP.
Totally tired when we reach there.
But I managed to cycle for abt 2 hours. Haha. Its fun though.
Cycling alone, viewing the grand scenery that I have never seen before.
Time for myself. A time alone.
Paddled as fast as I could, without anyone stopping me.
Felt myself pushing against all forces from the wind.
Nth could stop me from going.
I love it!
I want to go again!

Spoiler of the day.
Excessive amt of gastric juice.
Pain and just pain.

Sunday.. hehe.. a fun day ^^

Ok. Friday is dean’s birthday celebration.. oh no.. wad should we get for her?
Hmm.. will u go wif me?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 4:18 PM

Friday, March 09, 2007

^^

Alrights.
Was being lazy yest and I took leave!
Haha.. told my supervisor that I need to do registration for uni.
But I did try. My damn com is like super slow.
Not sure if it’s the server or my com.
Sianz.

I must get myself busy for these few days.
To fill up the emptiness that’s in me.
Tml will be a visit to NTU. Then to ECP. I wan to cycle. I wan to get tanned!
I dun look tan after the sun tanning session at Sentosa. -.-

Sunday.. hehe. A special day for myself
Not sure how it will turn out but I am determined to try.
Haha…

Nth much to say.
Blogging for the sake of it.
Cos I am feeling bored in the damn office.
Cos… I finished my stuff too quickly again.
30th june will be the farewell day to Rockwell Automation.
I look forward! Haha..

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:57 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

=\

Mixture of feelings for these 2 days.
But got serious and severe shocks.

One of which happened the night before.
Woke up from my dream and I could hear a female talking.
And its obviously not my mummy.
Then I realized I can’t move. Great. My hands were in a very weird position.
Could hear her (or should it be ‘it’) talking. But I couldn’t catch anymore of her phrases after a while. She sped up and it felt like a forwarding cassette tape player.
Totally freak out. I couldn’t even move my body and couldn’t speak.
Realized that my fingers can move! Haha. I pointed the offensive hand sign to it.
And amazingly, I am free! I could move.
I know that I can do anything other than opening my eyes.
Then went back to sleep.
Waking up, feeling pissed with it. Haha. So funny.

Another shock struck on me in the office.
Due to the earth quake in Sumatra, we could feel the tremors.
At 11.50…
I was sitting on my desk, typing stuff.
And I felt super giddy. Thought it was just me.
But everyone in the offices stood up, claiming that the building is shaking.
LOL.
So went out for lunch.
Then at about 2, there came the second tremor.
This is worse.
I could feel my whole desk vibrating.
Was totally freak out.
And a half day off for all! Woohoo..

Met Amanda for movie.
Ppl, should really watch Music & Lyrics.
A simple plot, but it has hidden agenda.
Music is the love that is between 2 people, includes the appearance and sex.
But lyrics are the understanding and the true love within 2 people after knowing each other better.
*thumbs up*

yup. Things dun always go according to what we plan.
Disappointments comes in, sadness sits in. anger overwhelmed me.
But. Wad it the ultimate reason for all these?
You should know.
I jus want to be with you. Only you and me.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:51 AM

Monday, March 05, 2007

nightmare over...

Yuppy

finally... results are out.
no longer having sleepless night or having horrendous dreams of having F for all subjects.
results are better than expected.kind of suprised by it.
haha.. having yanzi as the target is not a bad idea.
i am a yanzi fan~

lots of ppl to thank. without them, i would not have got thru this diff period.

Mr mus: Thanks for being my study partner in sch. thanks for all the encouragements too. must always stay in contact k. better dun forget me! hehe..

ZOey: thanks for ur encouragements too. and hear all my niam-ing. thanks for giving me advices for everything.

Sharon: thanks for giving me all encouragments when i needed them the most.

Teachers:
Mrs Tan, our beloved CT. thanks for giving me and mus lots of prelim papers... haha... thanks!
Mrs Chua, our Gp teacher. really thank her alot alot alot. wihtout her, i would have gotten D7. did so much 1 to 1 work wif me. consultation after consultation. and thanks for not giving up hope on me. thanks thanks!!!
Ms Oh, my fav bio teacher. expectations from her are high. but yup. the whole class did it. all As and one B. she is the creator of As & Bs! thanks for ur advices and guidance. really. ^^

AMANDA!! look!! i caps ur name!!! haha...really thank you.
before and during the As, u brought me thru this dark period of time.
u are always there to hear all my niam-ing. and TIME CHECK!! haha... pushed me to study.
and before the release of A results, u acc me thru the horrible night.
call me before the release of results, and the first to sms me abt my results.
can't imagine life without u.. haha.. sounds wrong.
but really. a big big big thank you! rmb! i am always here for u k. my hp is 24/7. ^^

esther! thanks for being there for me too...
talk to me on the phone when i dun feel like studying.
thanks for ur help... in.. haha... thanks thanks thanks... (=

chu xiang! thanks for being nervour wif me on the results day~ and yup.thanks for always being there for me too. and listen to my overloading troubles... meet up soon k~

chong hoe! for waking me up when i am sleeping in the concourse.. haha... thanks for ur encouragements too~

yoges! always a partner whom i can share my problems wif. not studies but.. haha... thanks ya!!

yao neng! thanks for ur distubing messages in msn! haha.. but will cheer me up and keep me entertain! thanks!

mdm howe!! thanks for encouraging too. grealty appreciated! i know i owe u a meal -.-

my mummy! thanks for being there to hear me out too. and not putting too much pressure on me. and being understanding... allowing me to talk on the phone, encourage me to go for k box session even during the a levels (haha)... and yup. hope u are satisfied wif my results. hehe...

and all peeps who always say " ni ke yi de!" thanks!

and to my study partner since sept...
a study partner who i always enjoy studying wif in the those solemn nights.
a study partner who encourages me when 'giving up' comes to mind.
my motivation to study.
cos of u, i know i am not alone...
an impt company, an impt person.
congrats to ur results! ur hardwork paid off ^^

alright. a rather lengthly post. like a speech. haha...
oh lastly thanks to 933 and 883... haha... making the study period lively....

thanks once again! a love u guys!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:48 AM