w e i q i ; her L i F e ; her S t O R y

Thursday, August 31, 2006

teacher's day

this year will be the last year of having a teacher's day celebration.
last year of gathering into the hall, watching the concert performances.
time flies huh..

not gg back to zss. jus dun feel worthwhile gg back.
envy those who find it meaningful of gg back to sec sch.
get to see their teachers, their frens.
bringing back all memories, whether its sweet or bitter.
wad abt me?
purposes of gg back?
no teacher seems to be worth visiting.
sounds bad.

will this happen when i leave pj?

but one thing for sure. time in pj is getting shorter each day.
gonna miss the life there. although its not really interesting. but, at least i get to know some frens... jus hoping our friendships stay.

oh my my my. getting abit....

shall enjoy tml... photos and photos...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:53 AM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

RAHX...

gonna have a busy weekend.
thurs - kster wif amanda and dar
fri - back to sch -_- dun tink i can make it for class outing ler...
sat - at home? dean gathering... should i go? got to study...
sun - YANZI!!!! thanks queen!! gonna scream my lungs out~

kind of regreted wad i did today...
shouldn't have do this and that.
its jus so dumb.
putting myself in a weird position.
promise myself not to repeat this again. never.
seeeing things that i am not supposed to see.
maybe its good?
for me to...

felt like a puppet. my emotions puppet.
always being controlled by others.
can't i jus get hold of my emotions myself?
why am i controlled?
i want to break free from these.
a puppet no more..

getting really emo these few days.
maybe i am jus weird.
ppl, ignore me...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:08 AM

Monday, August 28, 2006

eeyer

eeyer..
wads wrong wif me? feel so weird.
should i be happy that week 10 is coming?
no sch on thurs and fri... so?
thurs is outing day. guess not gg out on fri. sorry folks!

how do i get that point across to u? its so diff.. but wad exactly do i want to tell u? ha. i dunno.
maybe i should jus learn not to be too affected by u... yup.. thats the way..

zzz

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:26 AM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

dunno..

dun feel alright now.
dunno why.
nth to blog.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:52 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

...

i feel so uncomfortable.
there is some restriction huh
something that stops me
stops me for not talking to u
dun misunderstand
jus dun wish to cause any unhappiness

but it seems like this is how it will be
can't do anything
being friends seems to be so difficult
good frens when facing the monitor?

oh well... this is how things go abt.
jus hope there are no changes...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:20 AM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

sucks...

feeling really s* now..
lots of thoughts on mind.
if there is a choice, i would choose to disappear now.
jus leave.
dun wish to get involved in anything
jus dun give a damn in anything
to be carefree
maybe my disappearance makes ppl happy
let it be then.

not being appreciated
not being respected
not being concerned

jus like digging my own grave
helpless
confused

being numb is the key?
or being cold?
my coldest heart...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:59 PM

tired....

three timed assignments today~~~ GP, Bio and chem.. its damn draining... mind was totally shut off during maths.. sorry ms seah...

gosh.. one to one consultation wif mrs chua tml.. guess she gonna scold me... i am scared *shiver shiver*

ok. prelims are coming... a levels too.. sigh

Purely Writen by weiqi at 2:15 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

busy days...

have been quite busy. so have not been blogging..

yoges~~ hope u like that mini surprise that i gave u.. and i did enjoy myself.. its really nice chatting wif u... but i hope both of us will be happy ya...

the surprise...


'n' takes.... enough ler ya~ happy birthday in advance...~~~


sat... did maths for like 6 hours.. haha... then started to face my com.. and did the ppt slides... gosh... i did it from 11.30 pm till 6.30 am... completed in the MORNING!!! gosh... madness pls..

haha... but i got to thank someone... not sure wad nick to give to this person.. haha.. so many nicks... dao girl? panda han? vampire han? nini? haha... ok la... nini....

NINI!!! thanks so much ya... i am really gan dong yest... bcos of me... u can't slp... but anyway... u are still exploring somebody's blog la... haha... thanks for all ur support and ur accompany... a big hug for u ... *hugx* hehe... oh ya.. and the song.... thanks thanks thanks... i owe u once ya...
and... pls slp ok... if not, u won't have the strength to suck ppl's blood.. wahaha...

today... woke up at 11 plus... and watch tv... did maths.. again... shall study abit of chem later... food chem... sianz...

thanks again... to those who cheered me up... i will be better.. cos i dun wish to be a bulldog~!!! hahaha....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 7:59 PM

Friday, August 18, 2006

moody...

today jus sucks la...

i hate it when some ignorant ppl jus wish to get involve in some arguements. though he or she shouldn't be involved at all.. this jus gonna make things worst... and yes, i am pissed. i jus hate those ppl who is trying to be peace maker. but in the end, u are adding oil into the flame. i am fuming mad now.

attention to those ppl who jus dun like me:
if u dun like me, or u have jus got smth against me, dun read my blog. irony. and dun tag.
dun try to dirty my blog. and to scare my frens off.

dun test my patience. i have enough ok.

u won't like me if i get nasty.

worse come to worse, i shall jus delete my blog.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:52 AM

moody...

today jus sucks la...

i hate it when some ignorant ppl jus wish to get involve in some arguements. though he or she shouldn't be involved at all.. this jus gonna make things worst... and yes, i am pissed. i jus hate those ppl who is trying to be peace maker. but in the end, u are adding oil into the flame. i am fuming mad now.

attention to those ppl who jus dun like me:
if u dun like me, or u have jus got smth against me, dun read my blog. irony. and dun tag.
dun try to dirty my blog. and to scare my frens off.

dun test my patience. i have enough ok.

u won't like me if i get nasty.

worse come to worse, i shall jus delete my blog.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:52 AM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

arrggh

i couldn't sign in to msn!!!! wad happened man!!

oh well.. thats wad i can do now.. blog.. but i have got nth to blog...

tired... so much work undone... sigh....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:27 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

screwed

not a happy day today. lots of incidents...

oh well.. i was really pissed la... i am innocent.. and yet, u vent ur anger on me... but well... as long as u know ur mistake... u are forgiven... dun do this again~ hahaa....

oh.. thanks to dao girl~! thanks for the smiley... it did work.. felt much better. if not, u will see a fight gg on infront of u.. haha.. thanks alot~!

i guess its better to be forgiving. instead of showing ur underisable attitude to someone who felt sorry. got to tink whose exactly at fault. i guess both parties? sigh... i jus dun understand why la... shall shut my mouth.

screwed up chem paper... after doinf tys, prelim questions, and they dun seems to help. still screwing up my test. wads wrong????? i am seriously disappointed. wif myself...

tml is bio... pls.... boost my confidence level... i need it badly... sigh...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:24 PM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

messy

gosh.. was packing my stuff... papers are everywhere in my room.. so messy. tink i gonna buy more files... got to get them packed before prelims... hopefully... haiz..

and hulk... gosh... not nice at all... thought its a good show... bored to death... and ya.. i slp halfway... haha... its really... not nice...

dun tink i am gg for the gathering ler... no money, no time... and its not misaki's birthday celebration.. no point gg... wahaha...

tired... my engine seems to be breaking down ler... getting tired... the drive kind of stopped again. this shouldn't be happening now de... better wake up... its like 30 days more to prelims... scary...!!!!

we are deantrified... we are cute~~~~ haha...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:33 PM

pics...

oh yeah~ finally got the photos...

lucify wanna be~~


soul wanna be... eeks.. haha...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:47 AM

Saturday, August 12, 2006

weird

oh no.. feeling weird once online... i tink i am too used to it... should learn that things won't be the same for me all the time..

have some ideas for mrs tan present... but i hope its gonna work... we need photos!!!! must take more.. haha...

dunno wad to blog... i am so lost.. haha... why???!!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:42 AM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

sianz

tried so hard to get some bio stuff into my head... but... can't.. gosh... better get into the mood to study... of not, i am gonna fail my prelims... nonono...

coming online to get some motivation and inspiration.. haha.. but... there is nth... sigh...

SIANZ!!!

come across a j rock band.... vidoll. tink his name is tero... misaki looks like him~~~



haha.... 90% la... wahaha.... so cute~~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:37 PM

too tired...

used up too much energy yest. feeling so lerthagic pls... i need more slp....

i felt so lost out of a sudden.. is it bcos i am too tired? maybe... i dunno..

was watching s.h.e's kang xi lai ler... i am really envious.. its fate that brought 3 girls from diff cities and family background . they dun even know eachother before forming this grp. they are not colleagues or frens but close sisters... encouraging each other, sharing their happiness and sorrows together. never hiding themselves...

thought i have found some.. but... nah... i am wrong.

i should stop tinking.. haha... if not i am gonna be so pessimistic and emo again...

so... keep on hoping....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:28 AM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

fun~

fun day~~ tiring at the same time...

today started off by waking up late.. woke up at 7am.. gosh... but i managed to get out of the house at 7.10. i am fast >.< href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/3751/1056/1600/100_2003.jpg">

but was having lots of fun during singing along session. gathered 3 yzunlimited members to sing we will get there.. so cool !!! and i realised we have 5 members in pjc!!! its time to gather more fans... woohoo...

had lunch wif chu xiang. oh well.. din see him... sad... sad... sad... we went to k-ster to sing.. yeah~~~ today is not too bad... trying to gain some self confidence. haha.. met yu leng and ching hoe. added to esplanade to watch fireworks.. its damn nice.. jus love the 'bomb' sound..

pics






tiring... tml will be staying at home..

hmm.. i guess thats the furthest we can go. dissappointed? maybe...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:51 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

unexpected outcome

another emo outing. but i had fun. thanks to esther, apple, amanda, grace and jeanny.. haha.. oh... and the five of us are lucify wanna be.. haha... hope to receive the photo soon~~

well... had a good talk wif dean. had some misunderstanding here and there. but i hope in future we will have better ways to communicate.

message to u if u are reading my blog...
hmm... all of us are of the same age.. so... ppl at these age have some AP. so... u are not to be blamed..
i am somehow happy that my presence meant something to u. thanks... but without me, u still have alot of ppl who are willing to ting you all the way de. so dun worry... u still have them..
was upset to see u in an affected state. u are really affected.. but, maybe u dun feel comfortable saying it out... was holding my tears...
as comm member, i will still do my best. and to help bringing up the fc. but sorry, if i can't make it for events.
and ya... thanks for the hug... i hope u will feel better after talking to us... JIA YOU!

apple~~ dun be upset already. and i am happy that u cleared all the misunderstandings too.. and sorry that i am not a good manager.. i did not put in much effort. i wish to say, without u, deantrified will not exist. u rox~

realised trust and communication is essential in maintaining all relationships. deficiency of them will lead to misunderstanding and unhappiness. sigh. maybe i am jus.. useless..

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:21 AM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

rock on~~

superband has ended... was abit upset over the results... cos i tink lucify deserve to get into the final 2... was looking forward to their dressing.. gosh... they look like dir en grey... esp shinya and kelvin... goodness... they jus rox... misaki had turned his white hair to red... i still prefer the white hairs... haha...

no more lucify's performances... i wan more!!!! i wish to see the performance of the remaining two songs that they have prepared... dou jiang you tiao... in j rock? tinks its gonna be cool..

misaki... i wan to see him... arrrrrr.....

i guess singaporeans jus cannot accept j rock... they prefer prince charming and cute ppl... or rather those who loves to act cute... well.. soul... haiz...

they screwed up kai shi dong ler and perfrect man... they couldn't reach the high notes.. and their rythem was totally off for perfect man... gosh...

i guess the finals will be better if mlb and lucify are the final 2... haha...

ok.. gg off to jurong... hope to get some pic soon~~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 5:01 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

ups and downs

hmm... had an emotional CT period of Mrs Tan today. she started off by saying that we have 7 weeks left for proper lessons, and having lessons as a whole class. 7 weeks seem so short. although the bonding of the class is not as strong, i still have a little sense of belonging to the class. and we do have fun together.

mus and i were quite upset when mrs tan was talking abt this. our eyes were.. red. haha... emo children...

and mrs tan has forgotten that i am in her first three months class.. wa!!! pissed....

7 weeks left in pjc. limited time to hang ard wif frens like mus, tian chi and gang, xingyun and gang, zoey... i will treasure the time we have left. u guys jus rox ya~

after jc, all of us will be heading to diff routes... like wad mrs tan had mentioned, it will be diff to gather all of us together once again. but hope there will be some gatherings after the As.

2 years in pjc is short. dun really feel much belonging. but i am glad to know some frens. true frens. always there for me... esp mus and zoey. thanks alot~! i will miss u guys the most....

these few days have been bad days for me.. if i did offend anybody, i dun mean it.. dunno wad's happening to me.. choose to do things that are against my will.. i am jus weird these few days.

ok.. shall not focus on the bad emotions... anger, jealousy and hatred...

hope next week will be a better week...

i have to learn not to tink too much.. this caused too much problems...

very sorry to u.. i guess i am jus adding misery to u. i can't blame anyone but jus me.. for the changes... =(

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:01 AM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

wilful

did smth that is against my will. this move seems to be appealing but cruel. but. action has been done. no pt dwelling on it anymore. dunno if this is gg to work. it seems to work, but... is this wad i wan? i am not sure. nobody seems to know the ans.

a passerby in my life?

someone who left beautiful and sorrowful memories behind?

someone who tries to weaken me?

i am not a nice fren. so. sorry if i have disappoint u. maybe u jus dun know...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:45 PM

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tiring day. fell asleep when reading the gp articles..

have been thinking thru this once again. i guess its my mind that is weak. no determination at all.

was upset to see wad i am not supposed to see. wadever the truth is, i am still a nobody. maybe this is the msg that i should get from u. or it is the msg that u are giving me.

the story is somehow concluded. so no pt thinking abt this already. maybe by talking abt this again and again will make things worse. dunno.. i dunno wad am i supposed to do.

i guess its jus fate. and yup. it jus stops here.
and yes, everything is jus superficial. its time to wake up from the dream. beautiful dream. but somehow, it turns to be a nightmare now.

would it be better if there is some distance? would it be better if i dun bother abt it? should i tell u at all?

and btw, u have someone to rely on, don't u?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:17 AM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

leave me alone

站在你背后 感动又难过 这个人一开始也爱过

不知为什么突然间觉得没有你没有爱最快乐

Oh~ 如果你问我 想要些什么我会说我想要 风平浪静

慢慢的摸索 一天天的过但是我们想的毕竟不同

Oh~ Oh~ Oh~ Oh~ Oh~想什么 要什么 别问我

Can you leave me aloneNa Na Na Na Na Na ……

Oh~ Oh~ Oh~ Oh~ Oh~想什么 要什么 别问我

Can you leave me alone

我不想要谁给我快乐 因为快乐总带给我不快乐

我们不是做错 只是不知所措 So please 这一刻让我走 Can you leave me alone

love the lyrics, love the song. leave me alone...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:55 PM

stop all the nonsense...

ok... i am somehow affected by this. this is not a good signal...

wake up!! weiqi, u got to wake up!!

got to chill...

tml is gg to be a long day... sigh...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:37 AM