Monday, July 31, 2006

changes

i sense smth ... not very right... i guess.. there are changes already... sigh.

hate changes...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:00 AM

Sunday, July 30, 2006

lucify

ok.. misaki is cute la... but... he got to be more mindful next time... and yes.. he remembered me ler... he wants me to talk more... so that he can rmb better... and guess wad i replied.. i can't believe myself.. i told him that i am shy... thats so... lame...

we are similar in some sense...
1) WE WORE THE JACKET OF THE SAME BRAND! IP ZONE.. i jus love his jacket... was considering btw the one i am wearing and his.. haha... so fated...
2) BLACK SHIRT
3) OUR EYEBAGS... HAHAHA....

ok... took pic wif kuek... his shades is huge pls... covered his whole face...

the beginning of the gathering was... bored.. haha... but nvm... misaki jus so cute...

next week is the finals... guess i got tix ler... gonna rock expo down next week... LUCIFY!!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:17 PM

Saturday, July 29, 2006

tml~

finally able to go out tml~ yeah~

oh well... i din blog yest. cos i wasn't online at all.. thats so not me... i guess cos there is no purpose of coming online? not sure.. but nvm.. i am here..

thoughts are gg to diff directions now... although all are towards the bright side. which is better? not sure.

still dunno... i am still confused... answers pls....

cold comes cold goes. could u fill this hole? cos i can't do it alone~~~

Purely Writen by weiqi at 8:09 PM

Friday, July 28, 2006

hw hw hw

alright.. got a number of assignments to do... for the weekend. hmm.. sunday is my outing day... so i left wif fri and sat. hope i could enjoy myself in sunday... MISAKI HERE I COME!!!

erm... is history gg to repeat itself again? hmm... i dun tink so. cos i have learnt my lesson. yup. even if its gonna to be stagnant, i am still happy wif wad i have now. it won't be as bad as it was in the past. i could assure that.

i am hoping that all these are not superficial. can i hear from u?

prelims seems to be coming real soon. need to get a mug soon. haha...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:51 AM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

thoughts and thoughts..

have been thinking thru this again. i am confused once again.

maybe i should stop tinking too much? and to accept wad's for me? and accept the changes that will take place sooner or later?

maybe all these are jus superficial. seems to be wonderful. but... it isn't.

will time prove everything? all i wan to know is the truth. but. maybe this is not the right time?

i would say i am contented already. but.... should i hope for more?
disappointments will set in again. history gonna repeat itself again?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:20 AM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

drenched

ok.. was drenched early in the morning... suay..

tired.

i jus hate it when all assignments come at the same time. GP... mrs chua tinks too highly of us already... far too highly..

tml is bio test.. can i pass?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:24 AM

Monday, July 24, 2006

empty

i feel the emptiness in me... gosh.. sound like some songs..

well.. got pissed early in the morning... hate it pls.. hate it when ppl comes ard u, trying to irritate u and to piss u off..

tiring day... feeling emo again...

I AM AN EMO KID >.<

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:29 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006

misaki~~~~

yeah~ so happy... haha... he is cute~ i love him!!!
thanks to eunice and k-pher! thanks for getting his signature for me...

feeling too high.. got to control myself. if not, gonna fall sick again~

ok... today is a disturbing day. woke up twice , bcos of phone call~ !@#@$%^&*&(*%^@%^$#
nextt time i shall off my phone....

and happy birthday to yanzi~!!! haha.. not too late... hope she can find her desired happiness...~!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:30 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

arrgh

jus disappointed and pissed wif some ppl. disappointed wif how ppl can be selfish. pissed wif ppl who tried to piss me off, when i did nth wrong. i am jus only asking some questions! and u can jus throw unpleasant words to me jus like that. 18 years old of life. and never learn how to handle situations. not the first time already~! where is ur EQ man! disappointed wif this person, and the club.

S*. this spoilt the sat morning of mine.

everything is jus a mistake... should not have even joined. should not even know anybody there. get to know that humans can be so selfish, self-centred. the power struggle btw ppl. sigh. thought all of us joined jus for a purpose. to support her. thats all right? why humans love to complicate stuff??

really have enough of it.

perplexing life. >.<

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:44 PM

Friday, July 21, 2006

enuff..

dun wish to be involved in this. hope it doesn't get on my nerves.

weird feeling... who are u exactly to me? and who am i to u?

all i need is assurance, attention. cos i feel insecure easily. very easily.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 7:27 PM

arrgh

wanted to blog yest but there is smth wrong wif the server. arrgh. so nvm.

am i fierce? is this inborn? or is this way i chose to protect myself? after so much things had happened? clueless.

feel so helpless when i couldn't do anything to make someone happy. i hate it when i couldn't help ppl whom i considered significant to me. maybe i am jus insignificant to them. i feel so dumb whenever i was so worried for them, and meanwhile they have recovered. and i am jusa dumb person trying so hard to tink... trying of ways to help...

i realised i do reflect everyday. esp stuff that i have done to my frens. i feel so sorry if i do hurt them. and this would bother me.

i feel the emptiness in me....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:35 AM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

~.~

low self esteem, insecure, pessimistic, weak. well, thats me.

change is the only constant in this world. so true.

couldn't understand myself sometimes. i am jus a weirdo.

ronin's performance tml. who's gg?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:57 PM

tired

tml will be a short day. hope to get some rest.

and yuppy! lucify got thru the SF2... they are on their way to the finals.. hope they could put up their best performance. misaki can play the keyboard. haha.. he jus reminds me of yida. hmmm..

is it bcos i have settled down? not sure. can't be bothered wif mental draining stuff. doesn't show much commitments in anything now. but getting a bit sensitive now. always so mindful of wad ppl tells me. and always thinking it in a pessimistic way. weird me.

ppl doesn't show how much pain and suffering they are undergoing. so don't assume that ur life is miserable. cos some may be jus worse than urs. i would prefer to keep my mouth shut.

everybody are borned to this world wif parents, friends loving u.. caring for u. dun allow anyone to upset u. its not worth it..

hmm.. wad's life?

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:04 AM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

miss her

i miss her... she was so nice. but everything had changed. was looking thru the smses that she sent me. were really nice. giving me so much support, care and concern. and yes, she watched yanzi bcos of me. we were jus like very good frens... sigh... no more... no more of these messages will visit my inbox. who could be another her?

sigh. made a decesion today. is it dumb? is it a right choice? i hope it is..

nearly breakdown again.. in a kopitiam. gosh...but well, i have mastered the skill already.

tml is the start of hell, i guess. how wish time would stop now.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 7:55 PM

long day

woke up early in the morning for cca. and guess wad.. all of us are tricked!!! supposed to interview ppl who involved in the events that took place at SFCCA... but then... when we reached, all of us recieved a red t and we are supposed to put all our bags into a room... WAD? our purpose there is to help out!!! GOODNESS!!! to do CIP... haiz... why dun she dun get the j 1 to be involved? i dun understand why...

job for me was to give out goodie bags and balloons... and i stood from 8am to 1 pm... without sitting... and ate my lunch, standing. its an unique experience. get to hold on to more than 30 helium ballons, wif diff colours. and wif children stretching their hands, trying to grab the balloons. having to face whole bunch of unordered ppl, includes adults. <>. and feel like a mini star... cos cameraman loves taking pic of me and the balloon... ok.. lame... and ah ma calling me aunty... sadded...

reached home at 4 plus.. and took a nap... at 7, heading to yunan club to attend yoges' sis wedding.. its a simple but meaningful one. best wishes to david and nana...

pics
me and nana

yoges, nana, me

me and my prince charming... *puke* haha...

oh well... negative feelings are back once again... AGAIN!!! can they jus stop demoralising me? pls????!!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:52 AM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

sianz

still not starting my engine yet. only did the maths tutorial in sch. and din do anything today! the whole of tml is gone. i shall do some work on sunday before gg for recordings. maybe i dun get tix too... haha.. nvm... shall see how...

assembly talk today: STRESS
watever they mentioned was kind of linked to me. creepy ya.

hope history dun repeat itself.

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:18 AM

Friday, July 14, 2006

eeyer...

so emo!!! tears were coming out... but held back a number of times today... so fan over so many stuff... getting really upset over trival stuff... dumb pls..

got so irritated by mrs tan ... can she jus stop mentioning abt being absentt on fri? goodness... this incident happened 2 months ago... and she is still mentioning abt it... haiz.. can't she do smth more impt? like... encouraging us? can see that 02 students are feeling so down lately... smth is really wrong wif our class... can she do smth abt it? instead of nagging and nagging?

have been tinking to set my priorities... for next week.. and the following weeks... always been struggling wif these....
tinking of not coming online so often... but... jus worried that some frens will be drifted away from me... and i am so used to chat wif them ler... haiz... most importantly, they could cheer me up, crap wif me... and they understands me... who else have got these effort to do so?
i dun wan changes pls... pls..

realised it is really quite tough to maintain friendships wif poly students. dun know wad to start off in a conversation. saddening...

haiz... so irritated pls.... wish to tell everyone concern how i am feeling now... but... its so tough...
well... thanks zoey for sharing so much stuff wif me... u must be strong too... guess u are the one who understand how i feel at this moment...

tsk.. somebody gg camp... eeyer... nobody to crap wif ler... haiz...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:09 AM

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

emo mood

still feeling emo...

but thanks to apple... thanks for adding sunshine to my day~~~ cos she passed her phone to misaki... and i managed to talk to him! haha.. he is cool~ his voice is so man la... love him to bits...
told him i couldn't go for outing... due to sch day.. and he said " nvm, studies is more impt." haha... i guess i got to study hard... for misaki.. ok.. this is lame...

haiz... sadddddddd......

Purely Writen by weiqi at 7:00 PM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

haiz.....

i know my results are horrible... I KNOW~!

always been thinking so positively... wanna be optimistic.. dun wish to be greatly affected by the reuslts... jus work harder.. and i know no point tearing over the results... nth can be changed pls...

breakdown ler... finally... disappointed over my mum.. "better study! u have come all the way to jc... and this year is ur last year... better study"
gosh... i did study during the holidays... i did... but results jus dun show... wad to do?
this is jus goona add on to my stress...

she can jus lock me in my room, and get rid of my com, radio... so i can jus study at home.. ban me from gg out, no more activities for me... from now till A level, jus study, study and STUDY!!!

LOCK ME UP PLS!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 9:00 PM

...

results show jus freak me out... although i have confidence lucify will get thru.. still... possibility of eliminated is stil high.. hope they could get into the finals... next week.. will be a tough round... soul, brods and J3 are always so steady.. esp when comes to votes.. left wif mi lu ping and lucify... guess its btw the two... arrgh...

GP, chem jus s*. jus hope it gets better... *disappointment*
but, no tears ya. cos i guess i did study. results jus dun show. wad to do?

tml is bio. definitly a O or F. haiz.

sometimes i really wonder how am i gg to take A levels... so not prepared.. esp for GP. *sigh*
bless me...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:50 AM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

tml

last day of relaxation... tml is start of the new semester and term... i guess tml we will be getting back most of the papers... haiz... gonna be a crying day... gonna prepare more tissues....

managed to pack my stuff... i realised my table is really messy.. papers are everywhere... and i din really file in my stuff... sheesh....

tml is smart casual day... dunno wad to wear... so fan over this.. haha... wonder how those poly students settle wif their clothings everyday..

good things will never last... guess tml onwards, things will start to change again... dun really feel happy... dunno why... starting to get abit emo in the afternoon... feel abit tian hui.. haven feeling this for a period of time already... eeyer... can't do wad i did during the holidays ler.. gonna miss alot of ppl....

haiz.... sad....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 11:11 PM

lucify

oh well.... went to meet dean fc ppl in the afternoon... has some fun playing wif them... and ya... they are not too bad la... they are not irriating... haha.. and most importantly, they like lucify!!! and most of them like MISAKI!

hmmm... a choice btw two groups of frens is always tough. a grp gg to ktv, the other to mdc. ok... maybe i am wrong... sorry... i chose mdc.

oh well.. thanks eunice, zi wei and angeline... they gave me tix to get into the recording. and stood right in front... >.< hope my face was not shot... misaki will tend to stand over the left side... which is where i am standing... haha... was really high when he smiled and waved at me..

before each band starts to sing, they will play video of the original singers, giving tips and advice.. and yes!!! saw yanzi's video!!!! she is so chio la!!! and i am the only one in the studio shouting her name... malu...

they peformed well... but they din see the echoing part and the first day, first day! these 2 parts will bring up the atmosphere even further... too bad...

managed to take photos wif misaki, kuek, vic, shinya. oh well... the othere 3 are jus for fun... haha... misaki couldn't rmb my name... arrgh..
and i am gonna hate kuek... he can't draw! *roll eyes*

so tired... dun tink i am gg for tml's meeting.. novena is jus too far....

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:46 AM

Saturday, July 08, 2006

???

ok... exams are officially over... thats jus mid year.. i tink i won't score well.. so work harder for prelims...

kind of bored today. nth interesting happened.. stayed at home. com, tv, tutorial, nana, radio.. few days left for relaxation... got to enjoy them~

humans jus can't get best out of everything. or maybe failure always falls upon me? couldn't get whole of everything in my life. get to know of frens who are always by my side. really appreciate them. but, somehow wad i used to have had drifted away from me.
jus hoping that i am remembered... and appreciated. not diff isn't it?

ok... shall not dwell on this.

tml will be meeting up wif ppl of deantrified fc. maybe an outing straight after the meeting... so... no chance to go down to mdc to see misaki... >.<

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:10 AM

Friday, July 07, 2006

superman returns... >.<

yeah~~~ finally got out of my house! haha... went out wif esther to town... was literally rotting in town...

so we decided to watch superman returns... its a super long movie.. 2.5 hours. actually i have very high expectations of this movie... cos i-weekly rated 5stars... but... a bit of disappointed... its not really worth 5 stars.. BUT!!! brandon Routh is sooooo shuai!!!! gosh..... love him sia!

haha... esther was so disappointed that superman's son din take off... haha.... he will only fly in the next movie called "superboy begins".... wahaha...

ok.. tml is bio p1... and resting days are coming to an end soon.... haiz...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:33 AM

Thursday, July 06, 2006

bored ar...

goodness.... feel so damn bored!!! can somebody jus call me out? i am stuck at home since sunday!!! din even step out of my house at all!!!! thats so amazing k...

hands are still a little swollen... but tink its getting better ler...

i wan tix for tml's concert!!!! arrgh...

smth interesting... was watching chnl 49 wif my mum last night... it was jolin's special... then my mum noticed the tatoo on jolin's finger.

mum: hey... next time u can have a tatoo on ur finger too... it looks nice... just like wearing a ring
me: huh? u allow me to have tatoo? hahaha...
mum: ya... on fingers only... not on ur arm... not like xiao s and ah ya... not nice...
me: hahaha... ok la... i will do it next time... but must get a really nice pic... if not, i will get sicked over it...
mum: ya hor... its permenant de... nonono.. better consider again... hmmm... better dun have it then....

hahaa... my mum is so damn funny... din know she is so hip ya~ my mum rocks! :)

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:50 PM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

yanzi~~~~

ok... this blog song made my blog so gloomy...

decided to put up some nice pics of yanzi~~~ finally got some of the new photos...

goodness.... she is sooooo pretty la.... LOVE HER!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 3:27 PM

the moment....

just heard the moment from 933.... always feel super tormented when i hear this song...
a song that shows achievements that she had,
a song that she sang before her 1 year rest.
a song to show how tired she was....

the moment... a song of departure...
this song always reminds me of 3 upsetting past.... tearing past....
its dramatic to some... but... will tear when listening to the song.... *crying baby*

alright... saw yanzi on tv today... she is sooooo pretty...!!! wish i could fly over to taipei to watch the concert... haha... hope she will perform well.... and ya... dun fall off stage like fan fan.... hope fan fan is ok now...

arrgh... i wanna go nyp fan fan campus concert!!! din win tix today! sianz!!!

Purely Writen by weiqi at 12:51 AM

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

???

so bored... the only thing i could do now is to study? haha...

ok... A level is coming in abt 4 months time... which is 16 weeks.... thats fast la!!!!
so should i rest for these few days? or should i start studying now?
fri will be bio paper 1... hope i can score for that...

wanna go k box... but everyone seems to be busy... nvm... shall wait....

sch reopens next week... fri is considered as a no sch day... haiz.... jus hate the timetable man... fri i have got NO LESSONS!!!! jus gg for CT and assembly... tsk tsk... so having break from 8am to 10.30.... tink its really dumb... arrgh... somebody will start to nag again if i dun attend sch on fri.... ok... not my mum.. haha...

oh wells... really bored.... =.=

Purely Writen by weiqi at 1:28 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

painful~~~

poor foot... so damn itchy... skin came off!!! omg... so disgusting...

its a mistake to wear slippers for bball... my foot is hurting la... painful and itchy... poor thing...

kind of a boring day for me... but.. at least i played bball today~ hehe...

this period of time is really tough for me... but... bcos of this... i knew that there are frens who really cares for me... we really loves me... i am really touched... really... tears of happiness...
specially thanks to esther, amanda, wan xin, kelly, nellie, yoges... thanks for ur advices...i love u guys! i will be better de.... definitely de! sorry to worry u guys...

i believe this has come to an end. guess there are some changes... i feel the love that u guys have given me... and YOU! thanks for treating me as a fren! haha...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 9:30 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

better ler..

misunderstanding cleared...

sorry to those who are concerned... sorry to make u guys worry... i will be better de..

and sorry to u too... there are no other words that i can say... and thanks for ur concern.. i will ask for ur help de... if i need any... thanks thanks thanks...

hope ming tian shi qing tian ba....

i will be better...

Purely Writen by weiqi at 10:22 PM

happy day

yuppy! today rocks!

went to town to meet kelly... have not been going out for 6 months... so damn long... haha.. so happy to see her...

then shopped and shopped... wif k-pher also... went to orchard mrt to meet the lucify fc... wow... there are really alot of fans sia... haha... still need to queue up la... but its fun...

took this photo wif lucify....

too bright ler la... arrgh...

and realised smth, one member is absent... and thats kuek... he is sick la... so he's not present...

then waited to take individual photo wif misaki!!! goodness... he is shuai k... and cute...
me and misaki

after that... went to ate dinner wif kelly.... haha... chatted a fair bit. and thanks for ur advice~

overall... had fun... all thanks to kelly... cos u are willing to pei me to this lucify outing... and u sat there alone jus to wait for me.... thanks so much... i am sorry if u were bored... really sorry... really a great great great fren of mine! *muacks* !!!

ok.. i know wad i should do next ler...